My original idea for this blog was to create a Christmas blog. And, in a way, it will be. Right now I am at a place where I am feeling the need for light in my life. Lightness of heart and mind, light in my surroundings, light streaming into all of dark places of my life. I am in need of renewal. The path seems simple, yet blurry at the same time. There is a light in the distance, but there is fog at my feet. I make a lot of faltering steps, hoping that they will lead to a place of comfort and peace. I need to seek out The Light of the World. I cannot do this alone. I cannot depend on another human being to carry the weight of my expectations or my failings. I need to leave these at the cross.
"Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." ~ Matthew 11:29
Join me as I journey out of winter darkness toward Christmas, the season of love and light.
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On this exact day last year, I wrote the post below on a private blog. It appears that the time going into Christmas is one that sends my heart into a time preparation and readying my life for the King.
Lately I have felt it pressed upon my heart to make something new out my life. I'm starting by decluttering. The physical things in my home, the bad attitudes and habits of my mind and body, and the wasting of time in front of screens. I crave a sense of lightness and joy, something that is not being found in my current state. I am bogged down by things, broken promises, and good intentions. I have gone from seeking inspiration in the faces of my children to searching for inspiration outside of my home. My priorities must be rearranged. I feel a call to grace, both to receive what God offers me and to freely practice grace in the relationships I've been blessed with. There has been a lot of praying and tears for the redemption of relationships, and while it is early days yet, there are small restorations and the flame of hope grows brighter and stronger by the day.
I am absolutely committed to seeking and serving God and to being the wife, mother, child, and friend God meant for me to be.
